It’s amazing to learn that black people are so skeptical of each other, even when there’s no threat. I hate talking about issues related to race, but this is something that I’ve noticed lately. When someone of a different race gives a black person a price for their product/services, they pay up, but if someone of the same race quotes them the same price for their products/services they question the quality, the person’s experience, etc. I don’t understand this.
I mean, I do get that in slavery, we were programmed to hate ourselves and each other, but when do we shed that mentality?
Recently, I have had several conversations with people who have voiced their admiration for the work that we do, and the fact that they would like to do similar things. I have offered to help, because I want to see others succeed as well, but it seems as if these people don’t trust me. I didn’t ask for money or anything in return. I just know that God will take care of me for taking care of his people. Anyhow, when I offer to help, each person has paused and looked at me as if they were trying to figure out why I would want to help them. Maybe they were trying to think up what I could possibly gain from doing anything for them. Either way, it made me feel sad. I wish black people would accept help and offer it more.
I know that I also have an issue with accepting help. It makes me feel less than to need help from someone else. I’ve been working on that though. I saw an episode of Oprah’s Lifeclass, and one of her guests said that if you don’t like to accept help, it means that you judge others whenever you help them. I don’t want that to be true about myself. I want to help and have it come from the heart. So, I have accepted help when I needed it, and I have been offering help to others. I just wish they would accept it without believing that I have some hidden agenda behind doing so.